Wow so it been a while since ive posted, Corrine is 3 month old now she is doing great they just took her to get shots again. She is 25 inches long and in the 90th percentile for height, she weighs 15 lbs and is in the 90th percentile for height and her is still small 15 inchs wich is in the 25th percentile but the doctor says its nothing to worry about. She is getting more beautiful every time i get pictures of her! She is supposedly like the best behaived baby in the world wich makes me very happy. She is still a really good sleeper and is rolling over and arching her back on her own now. She has started wanting to stand all the time so she got a exersizer, i am not completly sure what that is but i think it is something to help the baby stand up on her own. She is starting rice pudding and get to have baby food next month. they are starting her on veggies first so she like both fruits and veggies! I am doing great just started green river and i love it. things are going great with my boyfriend and i am still looking for a job. I dont live at home anymore either i am staying with my boyfriend for now but hoping to get my own place soon. well thats all for now.

Thanks Giving.

It is thanksgiving today, I am over at a family friends with my family. I am sitting alone in a side room, but I can still hear my family laughing and talking. I Have head phones on but I can still hear them, I am in this room think about this year, and all I have to be thankfull for. So much has happened recently I have changed so much and for ever. This last year has probably made the most posative impact on my life over any other year I have ever lived. Wether its through a wonderful family who love and support me to the best friends and almost sister anyone could ever ask for, to the birth of the most beautiful daughter anyone could ever ask for. This last year had possably the best summer of my life, wich i spent with my best and dearest friends. I did one of the hardest things ever by placing my beautifull daughter for adoption, there was a lot of ups and downs but as I reflect on this year I can only see overly posative change in my life. I have been getting good grades In school and I am going to be joining running start at green river community collage this january. I am looking for a job, I have a wonderful understanding and awesome boyfriend. Christina (who unfortantly couldnt come to dinner today at my house like i hoped) even though we are apart, she is the other half of me, my very best friend and i couldnt of dont this last couple years of my life with out her. we will allways be friends I know we will grow old together and live in our own candy city that we rule with all the chocolate in the world lol :) My teacher ms magyar and my adpotion councler at lds family social services are also two very big influences in positive change in my life and i really apreciate you as teachers and mentors. I have learned so much this year about others but mostly myself. I have come to find my self so much through the pregnancy and the adoption school friends i have been so busy you would think i wouldnt have time to find much of anything. I found a lot out about who I am and what I can handle, I have really tested my self this last year and i will only continue to push for the better for myself. There are things I want to acheive and I will make it happen. To all my friends family and to the wonderful friends, the angels who adopted my little girl I love you all so much I can even say it. You have all changed my life and I have learned so much from this class and life... But i certanly think documenting this made it more real and easyer to avoid depression wich I have meraculously have! woop woop. happy thanksgiving everyone I truly hope that you all really think about all of the wonderful things that have happened to you this year and tell some one you love them and you are happy they are your friend. I know its sounds cheesy but the world could use more love. So I would rather live life through rose colored glasses over living life with mud on your glasses.

SMILES. So I have been in the hospital since friday! woop woop. I just barely got home last night. The surgery went well but I can honestly say I now understand why people hate hospital. I can honestly say gall bladders are worse than child birth, way worse. The Morphine makes you so sleepy but doesnt take away all of the pain. I was really groggy and majorly drugged for like three days straight and now im still in a lot of pain. All I want to do is sleep all of the time. It was very different compared to my last time in the hospital wich was exactly a month ago to the day of Corinne being born, It is hard not to compare. My last hospital trip was filled with joy and happieness and the birth of my baby. Not to mention I got to hold her all night and this time i got to be alone and in pain and concentrate on breathing to try and forget about the insaine pain. I am really tired so im going to nap ill post more later.

Good knews everyone. I have to get surgery! YAY. So i have been having these weird chest pains for a while and they started while I was prenant. Its a radiating pain that starts out small im my back and then grows larger and larger. They are far more plainful then childbirth any day. Everyone kept saying oh I think they are panick attacks and anxiety. I was like no these arent panick attacks. So today I had one that lasted almost three house and was so painfull that I went to the hospital for it. They all thought I was just having a panick attack that I was fine. Finally a doctor checks me out, and I have tons of gull stones!!!! I have to get my gall bladder removed and still I have two more root canals all this after only of having my baby exactly for weeks ago today at 306pm. This saturday is her 1 month, happy one month of life corinne and many more to come. well I have school in the morning so ttyl

Happy Halloween. well it was yesterday but whatever, lol. I have a fully clean room, hard to believe but it is true!!! took me long enough haha. So Corinne was a bear for halloween cute right. I thought she was going to be a strawberry but I guess they went with bear instead. You know what I think is funny you could dress your kid up as the most ridiculouse things when they are babys because there is nothing they can do about. think of all the poor babys that have had to dress up like something lame or embarrising just because they arent old enough to tell us they want to spit up all over what they are wearing. I saw benni bennassi he was amazing. Although I must say as nice as the wings are they sure as hell get in the way a lot. I kept bumping into people and not fitting in spaces i should be able to fit :( I have to go back to school and to be honest I am not sure i will even pass this session. I am so blahz'e in school now it isnt even funny. I got kicked out of class on thursday because me and a teacher got in a fight >:( lol I shouldn't have but whatever nothing I can do about it now. Puscifer is coming to town on the 6th and I really want to go but I wont be able to oh well next time around i guess. My nieces were a pirate and an angel, super cute guys thanks for the pics. I really miss Corinne but I hear she is doing well and sleeping through most nights. I cant wait till I get to see her again.

I got new pictures in my email, yay! So this is one of them. I have to say I have had a very very very good weekend so far and the best is yet to come. Last night I went to a Lazar show with a friend and left the Lazar show with a boyfriend. I said I wasn't going to date for a while but I can just let this one go. He is such a gentleman who ever said chivalry is dead hasn't met my boyfriend. I really really like him and couldn't ask for a better Halloween treat :) I also have a concert tomorrow with benni bennassi! woot woot I love benni bennassi. So Christina will be over in the morning and we will finish out tutus and stuff and then we will be leaving with a group of people to go to the concert. I am then hanging out with Olin ( my boyfriend) on Sunday woot. What i especially like about him is that he really doesn't pry about Corinne he lets me talk about her when I want to and then lets it be over when its over. He is so understanding and sweet. I really miss Corinne the adoptive parents sent my parents a thank you note and a birth announcement, but my package of pictures hasn't come yet. I am pretty sure the last cd didn't work because my mac is so much older then their mac and I don't have I life 09 so it wont read the pictures, lame sauce right? I met a guy on face book through mutual friends and he has a little girl. She is super cute and he is so proud of her. It is interesting meeting parents because only other parents feel, how your child just makes you beem with pride! How you want to plaster your kids picture in every ones face because they are sooo beautiful. I cant wait to see a pic of Corinne in her Halloween outfit I don't even know what they are dressing her up as but I cant wait. well that is all cianora

I am going to see lazer tool with my friend tonight. I am very excited although my day so far has not been good at all. I got to school only to remember I forgot to bring my book for a class. I also found out I have oil all over the back of my favorite shirt and pants. Then second period I got into a disagreement with my teacher so I left. I know normally it is not appropriate just to leave school but I am taking a mental health day to save the rest of my school from me. I also am very upset because I can not find my neckalace, I am really hoping I left it in the bathroom from when I took a shower last night, The necklace is very important to me and I never take it off accept to shower. I can say I would be truly devastated if i lost it. I love it because it is a constant reminder of corinne and I allway were it for her. I want today to be a good day but so far it really isnt working out. Tool is one of my favorite bands of all time. I absolutely love them. I am hopefully going to go to Puscifer, I have enough for half a ticket lol, the conert is on the sixth of november and I realy want to go. I am so excited for this weekend. Halloween is going to be amazing. I am going to a concert but I am still wearing a costume. I am very glad because this will be the first time I get to see christina since the baby was born. I really miss her. It is hard when your best friend lives far away and neither of you can drive :( I am currently at my moms school were I will remain till the end of the day. I would rather be here then at New Start, I really love working with my moms kids they are such sweat hearts.